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Subject:		I'm still here TT
Name:		survivor
Date Posted:		Apr 20, 08 - 6:28 PM
Message:		I guess I'm feeling really angry. There is the philosophy. "If you can't beat them join them" Thats all well and good with some things but not with others. There is always "eye for an eye" I can see how it would work but it makes you just as bad and sometimes worse. My m*m is cruel, she expects me to go along with her she behaves in a way that says "look what your missing" you can have all this if you just do as your told. Know one wants you, only me but you have to think feel everything I want you to and if you don't I'll remind you of what your missing. You can only have mee on these terms. I will only love you on these terms. I will only give you what you want on these terms. You know I love you as long as you do all this if not I hate you, your nothing your worthless everything is your fault. How dare you think how dare you feel. Who do you think you are. sorry mum I forgot I was nothing. There isn't a word or a sentance I could write to express the level of hate I feel towards myself. I wish I wasn't breathing. you said you'd told them everything, you said you was on my side, you said you wanted him locked up as much as I do. I believe that but only as long as it doesn't effect or spoil your world and as long as you can continute to live in denial. I'm only ever something on your terms, you will only help as long as it's not me. you see they are just words they mean nothing because they are not true. you said you told them everything. You make me question everything thats in my head. your the only witnesses I've got and it's based on lies. Thanks mum.
Replies:
Re: I'm still here TT by survivor · Apr 20, 08 - 6:36 PM (((survivor))) by Janet · Apr 20, 08 - 6:57 PM Re: I'm still here TT by kate · Apr 20, 08 - 8:21 PM Re: Re: I'm still here TTTTTTTTT by moi · Apr 21, 08 - 12:43 PM Re: I'm still here TT by Zingzong · Apr 27, 08 - 8:35 PM Re: I'm still here TT by Zingzong (repost) · Apr 27, 08 - 10:03 PM Thank you everyone by survivor · May 1, 08 - 11:13 AM p.s by survivor · May 1, 08 - 11:23 AM Re: I'm still here TT by crystal · May 1, 08 - 11:31 AM Hello Crystal by survivor · May 5, 08 - 10:25 PM

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